day 23

Not All Who Wander Are Lost

“i don’t understand you” is what my dad said when i explained what i was doing here in maui. it’s true—he doesn’t. and at the same time, i don’t understand him. or most people, i guess, for that matter. there’s this movie called “into the wild,” the true story of a guy (christopher mccandless) who grew up with wealth and privilege but renounced it, seeking instead solitude and a closer connection with nature. i watched the movie while i was here because i felt he was someone i did understand. here are some quotes he related to that resonate with me as well:

  • “I wanted movement and not a calm course of existence.” (L. Tolstoy)
  • “It should not be denied…that being footloose has always exhilarated us. It is associated in our minds with escape from history and oppression and law and irksome obligations, with absolute freedom…” (W. Stegner)
  • “I felt in myself a superabundance of energy which found no outlet in our quiet life.” (L. Tolstoy)

not to sound like forrest, forrest gump, but life is like a pair of shoes. it should fit you. else you’ll spend it walking around with your toes cramped up. or with your feet flopping about in a space that’s too big for them. as for me, spending my life in a house felt too small. i’ve already lived that life once, already experienced the house, parents, kids, allowances, puberty, curfews, graduations—why would i want to go through it all over again? i wish my parents could understand that, but they mostly just think something is wrong with me. i’m pretty sure chrisopher mccandless would understand, though. and malvina reynolds, too, because she wrote these lyrics:

little boxes on the hillside,
little boxes made of ticky-tacky,
little boxes, little boxes,
little boxes, all the same.
there’s a green one and a pink one
and a blue one and a yellow one,
and they’re all made out of ticky-tacky
and they all look just the same.

and the people in the houses
all go to the university,
and they all get put in boxes,
little boxes, all the same.
and there’s doctors and there’s lawyers
and business executives,
and they’re all made out of ticky-tacky
and they all look just the same.

and they all play on the golf course
and drink their martini dry,
and they all have pretty children,
and the children go to school.
and the children go to summer camp
and then to the university,
and they all get put in boxes
and they all come out the same.

and the boys go into business
and marry and raise a family,
and they all get put in boxes,
little boxes, all the same.
there’s a green one and a pink one
and a blue one and a yellow one,
and they’re all made out of ticky-tacky
and they all look just the same.

::sighs::

i’m not lost. i just don’t want to live in the little box.

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2 Comments

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2 responses to “day 23

  1. Sounds like a movie I should watch.

    Might make me forget my disappointment a bit as my Budapest trip fell through. Ah well, that’s life.

    Berlin in 2 weeks and unless something strange comes up, Marrakesh in 6 🙂

  2. piratejanny

    ooOOoOOo…marrakesh! 😀

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